I asked for a favour from a friend. He gladly helped. I gave the permission. I wanted to do that. I thought I will be ok. It is the right thing to do.
But hell no.
In fact it seemed like a part of me has been ripped off my body. I felt a sharp pain in my heart. I felt a pang of emptiness. I felt I lost something precious and important. I was hit by a huge surge of sadness. I felt weak all over. My head is spinning. I am confused.
Out of sudden, my tears just fall, uncontrollaby.
I wanted to ask him to stop and return them all to me, just like before.
But it was too late. All gone. Erased.
Been saving a couple of the memories since April last year. They have been very precious to me, keeping me happy whenever I see them.
Now, I have nothing left.
I feel so sad.
But it is for the better.
It is a new life now.
I have been hanging on to a next-to-never for too long.