Sunday, April 30, 2006

From midst air

Right now I am in KK. My flight back to KL was delayed as expected from Air Asia for an hour. They won't let us enter the departure hall so I have to hang out in an open air cafe facing the carpark. It is very hot here. I am sweating buckets since I came to this part of the world, kinda like sauna.

As I flying back from Layang-Layang on a really small plane that can only fit 8 passengers, I must say that the view from the window is nice. There were only 3 of us in the plane, me and a friendly French couple that I have made friends with. They were also on the same diving boat as me during the past 5 days.

Sometimes, as I looked out the plane window, the sea merged to the sky and clouds, forming a beautiful bluish gradient as you look up and into fluffy white clouds.

At times, I can see the orangy shades or even purplish shades over the horizon, with soft cottony clouds hanging in the sky, creating interesting hues as the lights sneaking on the side of the clouds.

As the plane flew across the South China Sea, it is rather comforting to see speckles of boats and ships on the sea, knowing there is life going about the surface of the sea. I saw 2 oil platforms too. And straight lines across the sea made by speed boats, kinda like patterns made by plane across the sky.

Patches of coral beds underwater can be seen, where shallow waters are in soft and lighter blue, where no divers go to and these are peaceful and undisturbed sanctuaries for the marine life. I wonder what are swimming in there and what treasure can you find.

Although It was sad to see oil spill as we are nearing to the main land. The colourful metallic gradient on the surface was very worrying, and I wonder how do one clean up this mess. I wonder how many marine life has been affected :(

And you know you are leaving all the slow easy happy moments behind as you approach the mainland, leaving the blue sea below and behind you and looking at roof tops and maze of roads.

But of course, the touchdown. The little aircraft door opened, the hot humid air gushed in, and the lowering noise of the aircraft engine...and stepping on the hard landing strip, oh well, back to reality again in the next few hours. Back to work, back to the traffic jam and back to classes.

Till the next island, and the next diving trip...

P/S: Will post photos of sky taken from the plane windo in my next post :)

Saturday, April 29, 2006

More Pix from Kite Kite

From the jetty

Birds on the little isle

View of the pool in the evening

The diving gang over the past 5 days

Last nite at Kite Kite

My last nite in Kite Kite. It was quite sad to clean up my gears this afternoon, after my last dive. Anyway, I did 2 dives this morning and in my first dive, I was lucky to see a school of hammerheads passing by us. It is estimated to be 40 of them. I can only say WOW! Asther said she had good dream last nite and she could feel good vibes. And yeah... it was indeed good karma.

Only no mantas to be seen. But never mind. I am happy. Also saw a big fat grey reef shark, a cute box fish (black with yellow polka dots) and I was right smacked in the center of a big school of Jacks. I float among them for a bit. That was amazing.

Visited a really small island where the birds migrated there during this time of the year to lay eggs and nurture their youngs. It was stinky due the birds' droppings and it was noisy as there are so many birds. But it was beautiful to see nature at its best.

Last nite, I was thrown into the pool by a French diver unexpectedly. It was their last day today for all the 30 divers from France. That's the only time I actually swam in that pool. Luckily, the water was warm. The only problem is my wet hair and I went to sleep with wet hair. Anyway, I impressed the French with Maxime de la Forrestier's songs, which was given to me by Pele.

Tonite, we are having a big BBQ dinner. Now just hanging out at the bar, with some DMs and divers, while blogging. It is so humid and warm here and I am sweating.

And overlooking a beautiful sunset, I sat next to a Japanese lady with really short hair that came with me to Kite Kite on the same day and found out that she came here alone too. She has been diving with her husband all these while until he passed away in January this year. Since then, she has been diving alone. She told me that she sometimes get lonely. I could sense that she was missing him so much as she gazed into the horizon. I wonder how many sunsets they have watched together over the years during their diving trips. All I did was said sorry and gave her a hug. And she gently said "Arigato".

Friday, April 28, 2006

Pix from Kite Kite

Huge jellyfish in the deep blue.

Meet Asther, my friend and currently a divemaster in Layang-Layang

Hammerhead nudibranch. A specialty in Layang-Layang.

The dolphins next to our dive boats, jumping and leaping in and out of the water.

Sunset from the resort. Very serene.

Pix not taken by me but by other divers.

Thursday, April 27, 2006

Diving tales

Diving is really nice here. Easy going. 3 dives a day. Nice weather. Eat, dive, eat, rest, dive, eat, rest, dive, eat, rest and sleep. Met a lot new friends, nice people here and they take care of me, which I am grateful.

Tuesday. Day 1 in Layang Layang.
Woke up at 4.15am, showered and had breakfast in the hotel then to the airport. They serve breakfast starting at 4am in the hotel. That was so early. Had nasi lemak and bubur. Then to airport by taxi.

When I arrived in the airport, I met Eugene, the person in charge of the Layang-Layang Dive Resort. After, I met Dr Kurt Svacula, the author of "Diving in Malaysia" book. I thought to myself, that is a good start. Fly in a really small plane where it can only fit max 12 people, depending on the weight. They weigh all our luggage and all the passenger before boarding us to the plane.

Did 2 dives today, one before lunch and one after lunch. Very nice corals landscape. Best I've ever seen. Well, not that I have seen a lot or enough to even give that kind of comment. No hammerheads, no mantas. I will not ask that question coz I have been warned not to. Have a german guy the name of Ramin, by who is lawyer that specialised in Mergers and Acquisation of company as a buddy. He is all over the place. So hard to keep up with him. Very cute, nice eyes, soft spoken, very funny...ahh... never mind.

Wednesday. Day 2 in Layang-Layang.
It only got better being here. I am glad I came. Met new friends and that is really cool. Asther been taking good care of me. It is Wednesday and it is a working day. But I am in an island, not working. How nice is that?

Did 3 dives and was dissapointed coz yet to see "it". But am keeping my fingers crossed.
The highlight of today was that I saw dolphins as we are going back to the island on the last dive today. They were jumping out of the water next to our boat. One did a double somersault. It is such an amazing experience to see them playing.

Thursday. 27 April 06.
Day 3 in Layang-Layang.
Amazing day. Happiest day. Saw a hammerhead in the first dive, out in the deep blue. Oh yes, we dive to the deep blue in most of our dives to search for hammerheads and mantas. It is such liberating feeling to dive to the deep blue. Nothingness, surrounded by the blue water all around and floating in it.

On second dive, we saw a school of devil rays. So beautiful to see them swimming in formation. 12 of them. So graceful. Saw unicorn fish, leaf fish, octopus, a reef grey shark, school of Jacks and barracudas. But I had seasick and feeling really awful but seeing the hammerhead made it worthwhile. I did not take Nuvomin yesterday and today.

On third dive, it was a bit cloudy and visibility ain't that great. It was a wall diving. Nothing much but saw a moray eel, a juvenile file fish and four sharks. So cute, really tiny and I like it.

I hope tomorrow will be another good and lucky day for diving. I want to see Mantas. I will try to post some pix up :)

Wednesday, April 26, 2006

In a hotel in KK on Mon nite

Phew...finally got online. Made friends with the guy running the resort in the island and my divemaster friend helps too in gaining access.

Here is my post which I wrote in the hotel on Monday nite. Will post more on what's been happening here.

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In a hotel room now in KK. It is very boring. Was watching some local Malay drama and then some el cheapo English speaking but with Mexican accent movie on TV2. Crap! Not much choices for channel surfing.

As per advised by Arizona, I am writing a journal whenever I am bored or got nothing to do. That's what I am doing now exactly.

And I so wish there is an Internet access here. But no, the only place with Internet access is the Business Centre and it is closed. But at least I have my computer with me where I can listen to music while I journaled. By tomorrow, I will lose all communication means as there is no Maxis signal or Internet acces there, unless I pay a bomb to contact anyone.

Asther just called me to check I am ok. Sweet isn't she? And right now, I am sms-ing Delphinus and Rob. Delphinus told me that Gervais was stuck in the traffic for 2 hours after sending me to LCCT. Oh dear, I am so sorry. Bak Kut Teh on me when I am back to KL. I must say that Gervais is so sweet to send me from my office to the airport this afternoon. I gladly accept his offer coz I have 1 huge bag, 1 bag pack and 1 small bag. Gervais also lend me his digital camera for this trip as I don't have any. I can't take any underwater photography but will take some pictures of the island and perhaps birds.

I have to go to bed early tonite, which is too early comparing to my daily go to bed schedule, cos I need to wake up at around 4.15 am tomorrow for breakfast and then leave to airport. My flight to Layang Layang is at 6.30am. Maybe I'll watch an episode of Out of Practice before I sleep.

Oh yes, note to self. I must not leave anything behind as I have this bad habit of forgetting to take my things and leaving them everywhere.

Gotta record this down. As I was watching TV2 just now, the sight and sound brought back a very familiar yet distant feeling. I can't help but having this nostalgic feeling of me back in my grandma's home in Melaka. It reminded me of the typical night back then, where there are only 3 channels to watch and the TV is on every night. Grandma will be watching the drama on TV with a very loud volume coz she was a bit deaf. I could almost see the entire surrounding of my grandma's home in Melaka quite vividly and I felt as if I was still that teenager who live there. At that moment, I miss my grandma, I miss those times, I miss my sister, I miss my dad and I miss the familiarity of a home which I have lived in for 20 years.

Monday, April 24, 2006

Off I go

I am off to an atoll for diving for 6 days. I am leaving this evening. My bags are packed.

I am excited because I am hopeful to see hammerhead sharks and manta rays. I am going diving. I am going to be in an island. I don't have to work.

But I am a bit heavy hearted coz I am going there all alone. I dunno how I am gonna cope with that, but I shall take it as a challenge. It was a wonderful plan initially but it fell through and it is a hard decision to still go. I am broke.

There won't be any Internet or Maxis there, so I am cut off from my everyday world. But I'll be back in a week's time. Meanwhile, take care, have fun and smile.

Sunday, April 23, 2006

Never leave till tomorrow

A couple of hundred years ago, Benjamin Franklin shared with the world the secret of his success. Never leave that till tomorrow, he said, which you can do today. This is the man who discovered electricity. You think more people would listen to what he had to say. I don't know why we put things off, but if I had to guess, I'd have to say it has a lot to do with fear. Fear of failure, fear of rejection, sometimes the fear is just of making a decision, because what if you're wrong? What if you're making a mistake you can't undo? The early bird catches the worm. A stitch in time saves nine. He who hesitates is lost. We can't pretend we hadn't been told. We've all heard the proverbs, heard the philosophers, heard our grandparents warning us about wasted time, heard the damn poets urging us to seize the day. Still sometimes we have to see for ourselves. We have to make our own mistakes. We have to learn our own lessons. We have to sweep today's possibility under tomorrow's rug until we can't anymore. Until we finally understand for ourselves what Benjamin Franklin really meant. That knowing is better than wondering, that waking is better than sleeping, and even the biggest failure, even the worst, beat the hell out of never trying.

~ Meredith Grey of Grey's Anatomy

I just wish I did it. But I was too afraid and too worried :(

Saturday, April 22, 2006

Month of choc cake & breakups

Chocolate Cakes. I ate so much of it lately, for the past few weeks. One of my colleagues found a simple recipe to bake chocolate cake without butter. She attempted it and we all love it. Inspired by her success, three other colleagues tried the recipe too. They even have a competition on who bake the tastiest chocolate cake. And I get to eat everyone's chocolate cake. Almost everyday.

Pele too has been baking brownies. Yummylicious brownies. And I was lucky to eat them on both times he baked them. I even took home some. Earlier, he introduced us to L'Opera and Royal cakes from Chef Jerome. My goodness, the taste are heavenly.

So, I guess for while now, I will avoid chocolate cakes. But I believe there will still be continous supply of chocolate cakes for a while. Oh, I just ate 4 pieces of brownies baked by Pele :D Yum Yum.

Breakups. Very disconcerting. First time in my life, I have so many friends broke up with their partners in one month. Sad!

Early this morning, a friend called up to inform me of a bad news. Both parties are my friends. Sad. They were so in love, but circumstances posed as a hurdles they cannot jump over.

Two other unfortunate friends have lost contacts with their boyfriends. The boyfriends stopped calling, leaving them wondering in sadness. But love is so great that it leaves hope for both of them, that perhaps, the calling stopped due to a very good reason. The hope and the trust for that someone in good faith, all because of the love in the heart. And hope springs eternal.

A few more suffer silently... Hang in there, buddies.

When there are breakups, chocolates are good for the soul. Now I see the connection.

Friday, April 21, 2006

Bits of Emotions 3

I walk in the rain that’s fallin’
A voice in the distance callin’, why
I run to the empty doorway waitin’ for the sun to shine
When will love be mine

~ Somewhere, Somebody by Jennifer Warnes

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Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get insecure
It doesn’t matter anymore

It’s not always rainbows and butterflies
It’s compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my door’s always open
You can come anytime you want

~ She Will Be Loved by Maroon 5

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There are only so many tears you can cry
Till your heart stops breaking
Only so many doors you can try
Till you finally find your way
Out of the dark, into the light
No, the clouds won't always be grey
The sun reappears in the blink of an eye
And there's only so many tears you can cry

~ Only So Many Tears by Beth Nielsen Chapman

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You take it as it comes
When you've got no way to hide from the hurting inside
When there's nowhere you can really run
You take it as it comes

And one foot goes in front of the other
And one day rolls into the next
Sometimes you've got to let your heart be numb
And take it as it comes

~ Take It As It Comes by Beth Nielsen Chapman

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I could feel it go down
bittersweet i could taste in my mouth
silver lining the clouds
and i
i wish that i could work it out

and the hardest part
was letting go not taking part
you really broke my heart
and i tried to sing
but i couldn't think of anything
it was the hardest part

everything i know is wrong
everything i do it just comes undone
and everything is torn apart
oh and thats the hardest part
thats the hardest part

~ The Hardest Part by Coldplay

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Oh, mirror in the sky
What is love
Can the child within my heart rise above
Can I sail thru the changing ocean tides
Can I handle the seasons of my life

~ Landslide by Dixie Chicks

What is Thy will?

Dogs are barking and howling outside. It is kinda eerie at this hour. I am still awake, quite fresh, actually. I need to sleep no matter what, or else tomorrow will be an awful long day.

But meanwhile, I am here pondering if God really listen to our prayers and work His miracle on us. Or is He someone who continues to challenge us, testing our faith towards Him? Or He is someone who blessed us with good things all the time?

Well, say what you like. When times are bad, God is testing us. When time is good, it is God's blessing. You can never win. Seems like God knows it all and what is best for us. His will is not to be questioned but to be trusted upon.

Most people will remember God during time of stress and difficulties, where they will fervently pray for a miracle from God to change and improve their situation. On a happy day, God or no God, some don't really need Him. This usually how someone who is lackadaisical with God matters be like.

But as many as those that will turn to God in difficulties, many people actually lose faith in God and gave up on Him when they are down in the dumps. They were angry with God. They can't understand why God will let bad things happen to them. They walk away from God. They lose faith that God. They dislike not knowing God's will. They questioned why is God's will so hard to comprehend?

We all know that we can always pray to Him in the midst of difficult circumstances. Anyone can pray when things are going well. It is easy. But when the bottom drops out, when hardship hits, can we still keep singing our praises to God? Or do we be complacent and just forget God when times are good?

Wednesday, April 19, 2006

A view on Love thru a song

I asked a friend if he would describe how he view his love through a song, which song would that be. He told me this song below is how he is feeling. When I read it, I knew instantly how apt it is.

I Want To Know What Love Is
by Foreigner

I gotta take a little time
A little time to think things over
I better read between the lines
In case I need it when I’m older

Now this mountain I must climb
Feels like a world upon my shoulders
I through the clouds I see love shine
It keeps me warm as life grows colder

In my life there’s been heartache and pain
I don’t know if I can face it again
Can’t stop now, I’ve traveled so far
To change this lonely life

I wanna know what love is
I want you to show me
I wanna feel what love is
I know you can show me

I’m gonna take a little time
A little time to look around me
I’ve got nowhere left to hide
It looks like love has finally found me

In my life there’s been heartache and pain
I don’t know if I can face it again
I can’t stop now, I’ve traveled so far
To change this lonely life

I wanna know what love is
I want you to show me
I wanna feel what love is
I know you can show me

I wanna know what love is
I want you to show me
And I wanna feel, I want to feel what love is
And I know, I know you can show me

Let’s talk about love
I wanna know what love is, the love that you feel inside
I want you to show me, and I’m feeling so much love
I wanna feel what love is, no, you just cannot hide
I know you can show me, yeah

I wanna know what love is, let’s talk about love
I want you to show me, I wanna feel it too
I wanna feel what love is, I want to feel it too
And I know and I know, I know you can show me
Show me love is real, yeah
I wanna know what love is...

Well, don't we (those who are still searching for the person to share the life and love with) all feel the same too?

And as a consolation, listen to the song by Jennifer Warnes by the title of Somewhere, Somebody.

See you again, Dr Andy and Fishy

Hey Dr Andy and Fishy, I will definitely think of you both especially when I no longer see both of you on our Wednesday meet up. I will always remember you both as the first 2 faces I see on most Wednesday meet up.

I wish you both all the very best and a wonderful life together wherever you are.

So long my friends, and I sure hope our path will meet again soon, again, always. Take good care!

Tuesday, April 18, 2006

A person

I love reading blogs. Not just anybody's blogs. But blogs of my friends or interesting blog such as Kenny Sia and Karen Cheng (in my opinion). Sometimes I feel that I am a bit of a busy body reading blogs, but it is indeed a great way to find out what's up with your friends. Vice versa.

Since 2 days ago when I started reading a particular person's blog, I have this huge urge to stop blogging all together. Reading this blog makes me feel repulsive. I have this fear that someday, my blog will turn like that blog. I swear I would kill myself if it does. I get worried if I am like that too coz I don't ever want to be like this person. I know I should not talk bad about a person, but this is not what I intend to do.

I am just so so curious how can someone could write so much great things about herself. There are self praises written all over. You can easily detect how much this someone is proud of herself. You can also see clearly that this someone loves herself more than anything else. Kinda like some narcissist.

Me me me. All the time. Wow.

Ok, that is not about it that makes me read the blog in disbelief. The stories written about herself are too good to believe. They seem unrealistic and made up. It may be true to every single details but somehow, I am so skeptical and find it hard to believe it is true. Some people totally believe what was said and written. They truly think they are valid facts.

And in person, the stories and self praise never ceased. It is tiring to listen to them but yet I am so amazed each time, leaving me to wonder how can one person think so greatly of herself and have such a life of wonderful grandeur. That confidence and that proudness of oneself. And worse, it kinda demands me to praise and compliment as I listen to the words coming out of this person's mouth.

If what has been said or written was mostly untrue, it makes me wonder still how can one person can weave such stories from day to day, living in them, as if they are real. Is it because they live in a world where made believe has merge to reality? Where the mind fail to distinguish between the reality and dreams? Kinda like Fight Club.

But what if every bit of the stories are true. I will be happy for her. It is a wonderful life, blessed with so many talents, beautiful things and all that a girl want for. Then again, you wonder if they are true, would you still go on and talk about it to everyone. It is now seem like bragging, doesn't it?

I am being judgemental. I am skeptical. I am disbelief. I lack of trust. I know this is bad, sigh!

Despite that, I am really curious to know this person, to understand how does the thought process work and the personality. Interesting person to study.

Maybe there are some truth of what has been said. Better be, or else, that person has serious issues. Or is it just me?

Monday, April 17, 2006

Party @ Velvet

A Maorian or a puppy?

Yeah, groovy baby!

Party animals

Thorn (Mr Banker - woo hoo!) among Roses!

Cheeky cheeky

After PD last Sat, I went to Velvet at midnite with another group of great friends - Juni, Delphinus, Wendy, Sweetie and Banker. Later Adrian, Antje, Vikram and 2 other guys I have no idea what are their names :P joined us.

It was a mad long day already, I knew, but I wasn't that tired. Must be the massage I had earlier. I just want to get out and not be drown into my negative emotions. And I really want to party with the gang especially I had promised Delphinus and Banker quite a while ago that I would go clubbing at least once with them, before Banker is gone for sure and won't be coming to Malaysia on weekends anymore and stay in Singapore as he was supposed to. We have said too many times a good bye to Banker. LOL.

It was my first time to Velvet. Only to been Zouk once, but not Velvet. It was so crowded there. They play nice music. We sneaked to Zouk but it was playing Trance music there and it was too loud there, so we went back to Velvet. We party till the lights were turned on and music was turned off. Banker was so drunk, which I didn't know till today. I was the most sober and not polutted with a single drop of alcohol. The rest of the gang were steady too :)

We then went for dim sum and yak till late dawn. What a nite, err, morning. I missed the sunrise Easter service at 6.30am organised by Calvary Church. God, please forgive me for not going to church. I really do love You!

Photos taken by Delphinus and Adrian (C) 2006

Day trip to PD

Me reading the newspaper and chilling.

Under the shade of coconut tree.

Rainbow...very refreshingly nice.

About to sunset.

My new friends, Chika and Rayna.

I went to PD on a day trip last Saturday with a group of friends. Not been there for ages. Due to some past reasons, PD has been a no no. But now, I can go there as much as I like.

I woke up on early Saturday morning with an unsure feeling if I should go. I was not enthusiastic. I was not able to decide if I should go or not. Staying back sounds good where I could play tennis in the evening, but spending a day away from KL will be nice too. Finally I went. It was the right choice. Never listen to my heart. It is always irrational :S

Some of my friends wanted to go there for watersports like wind surfing and kayaking but I only want to chill by the beach, enjoy the sea breeze and the company. I went for a full body aromatheraphy massage with Jade. It was really nice and relaxing. We both fell asleep after the massage.

The rest of the time, we talked and discussed issues among each other and I enjoyed that. During this trip, I get to know my friends a little better. It was also really nice to meet 2 new friends - Chika and her cute daughter, Rayna. She is so full of life and bubbly.

Dinner was great at a seafood restaurant in PD. It was cheap too. I ate Ostrich meat for the first time. No smell and tasted good. I am surprised I like it.

And I musn't forget that I owed Jade and Orion money too from the trip :P Thanks Orion for organising this and persuading me to go. And to everyone else that went, thank you for the company.

Photos taken by Gervais (C) 2006

Mah Jong Madness

Here are photos from my Mah Jong sessions with friends from last Friday nite.

Arranged tiles during a game.

My Mah Jong tiles bought by my dad for me.

Unpacking Mah Jong tiles before a game.

A game in process.

Pelenalaka has been very generous in allowing all of us in his house for several Mah Jong sessions since the past 2 weeks. There are lotsa food, drinks, yummy ice-creams and most importantly, my favourite delicious sorbet. It was like a small pot luck party but with the objective of playing Mah Jong.

Pele has been patient in teaching newbies to this traditional chinese tile game. Many has the opportunity to learn the game. Some got addicted. I got addicted. It was fun. I like the game. So much so that I got my dad to get me a set of the Mah Jong tiles from Melaka, which is much cheaper than buying it from KL.

I learnt to play the Cantonese Mah Jong when I was younger but I have forgotten how the game works. But Pele taught us the Taiwanese game of Mah Jong. It is a bit different from the Cantonese Mah Jong game, I heard. If you like Jim Rummy, you probably can pick this game up really fast. Man, he is strict. He even QC-ed us during the games. I am bit slow, so Pele did voice out his frusfration of my mistakes.

Playing Mah Jong keeps the mind off many things and yet making the brain sharp and alert, especially mine, which often idles and wanders to stupid stuff. And it is a social game, perfect to chill and hang out with friends. I hope to have more Mah Jong sessions, but with Mrs Pele and the twin back from France soon, I foresee very limited opportunity to play in the future.

Photos taken by Gervais (C) 2006

Post weekend

Can't sleep and all I can do was surfing the net, which I had no idea what to look at actually. Thanks goodness, Delphinus appear online at this ungodly hour and we are chatting now. I am glad that I have her and friends to talk to too. I guess I am really lonely inside. It is silly feeling but I honestly do feel so.

It has been a weekend with lotsa mixed feelings. I was happy doing stuff with friends, but inside, at times, I was feeling ebb and flow. What happened 15 minutes on a Sunday can spoil the entire weekend too. But I know it is better to hang out with friends than sitting at home idling myself and dwelling into my own miseries.

Just wish my days will be clearer again. I really dislike what I am feeling now and what I had to go through right now. I am so mentally exhausted. Urgh, I need to sleep but I am so wide awake. Maybe I'll post some of the pix of what I have been during last week. Later.

Friday, April 14, 2006

A week of silence

I've not been posting for a week now. Sorry.

I really want to write and share some updates with you but just not interested to do so at the moment.

I am going through another wave of roller coaster ride again. I do want to let out the misery inside me, but I just too numb to spill. Something happened to me since my last post and it is affecting me in a bad way. I just need to find my path again.

Friday, April 07, 2006

Am home and bored.

It's Friday nite and I am sitting in my room, blogging! Darn. How sad. I wanna go out. But seems like everyone else has a plan except me. I had a plan earlier but due to my own doing, I don't even have a plan now.

I am not going to watch a movie alone, not again! I don't feel like reading either. In short, I don't want a house arrest tonite. Somebody, please save me, this self-made Rapunzel.

Earlier during lunch time, me and some colleagues went to True Fitness to check out the gym. Apparently one of the largest gym and what-not-sales-talk. After the tour of the gym, the fitness counselor offered us a fat analysis of our body. And after measuring some meat off our tummy, arms and back with an equipment that pinches, I was told my points was 33.2%. She showed me a chart for the points, and shockingly true, I am in the obese category.

Can you believe that? I am an obese. So next time anyone telling me I am too thin and ask me to eat more, I had no idea who to believe.

Urgh! Not a good beginning to a weekend :(

Thursday, April 06, 2006

I can't write :S

At this moment, I am writing a proposal to a client on a newly improved product. To be precise, I am blogging now. I was writing a proposal. Then I got distracted. Way too often today.

I just realised that my brain is rusty and I can barely write. Long gone were those days where I can write two or three proposals to customers in a day, on top of doing other work.

Luckily, I write in this blog, or else, I am not able to write anything anymore.

I had a bad habit. I know I had to finish the proposal today, but I get so easily distrated. I suddenly had so many things to do. This is really bad. I am getting lazier. Very lazy. Not good. *shake head*

More jewelleries

Voila! here are other designs from Allyfeel. Note that you can choose your own colour combination. They are all for sale. Just let me know if you like them, and Allyfeel will custom made them :)

P/S: For bigger, click on the image

Glittering bracelets

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Cute dangling earrings.

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Circular pendant

Wednesday, April 05, 2006

A ring for me

Allyfeel made me a ring. Very pretty and intricate. With Swarovski crystal - black and light brown. I like it and wore it for a day at work yesterday. Thank you so much, Allyfeel.

Then this morning, when Allyfeel show me the other colour variations she has made of the same ring pattern, I wanted the other colour - a light purple and brown. This is much cheerful combination of colours and the colours make me happy. It was halfway done and she said I can have that instead once she completed it. Thank goodness, she let me exchange it :)

1. Allyfeel beading and knotting the crystals one by one, so patiently.

2. Work in progress of the ring... almost completed but not yet.

3. The completed pretty ring on my hand. Nice, eh?
4. Allyfeel and me with rings handmade with love by Allyfeel herself

Some of the different variations of colours of the same ring made by Allyfeel.

Oh yes, a little bit of marketing here... these rings are for sale, if you are interested. They can come in sets or in any combination of rings, earrings, bracelets and pendants. Allyfeel can custom made these where choose the colour combination you like... or even some other designs.

Mine is the middle one on the middle finger. Sounds a bit vulgar :P

She will be putting up a site soon to display all her handiwork. It will be easier for everyone to choose what they like then.

Beautiful Blooms

My childhood best friend sent me an email with a 20MB attachment of photos!!! My email application collapsed and my computer froze. But it was all worth it coz the photos were great. The photos were taken last weekend where she and her family and parents had spent a day at the Singapore Botanical Garden.

Her cute daughter, Happy, yes, her name is Happy if literally translated from her chinese name took all the photos of the flowers. Very good for a 8 year old.

I have asked permission to post some of the photos on this blog, just so you can see them too.

Close up of a purplish bloom. Very pretty.

I always like this orchid, just love their whitish-greenish colour. They are simple yet very elegant.

The file name of this image was named Beautiful when it was sent to me. I agree :)

The young pretty photographer. Ain't she sweet?

Tuesday, April 04, 2006

All Year Round

Before I go sleep tonite, here is a song for someone who means a lot to me and whom I absolutely love spending time with.

Just learnt about this song last nite through Pelenalaka and I think it will be nice to put it down in here especially after what I said this evening, which I am truly sorry. I do not ever wanted or intended to mean that at all.

All Year Round
by Paul Weller

Our eyes meet across the floor
We don’t have to say much more
Lets take a chance on it
Say you’ll be mine till spring

We kiss on crowded streets
We kiss everytime we meet
Who knows how it will go
Stay here till summer comes

I love you more each day God sends
Love you because you are my friend
Oh, don’t say our luck has blown
Oh stick with it till autumn goes

Lets make love in the light
Sleep together every night
Oh, with dark days all about
Oh, lets stay together, see the winter out

Boss' Birthday today

Today is the birthday of my boss, the Managing Director of the company I am working in. We (some people from the office) had vegetarian lunch with him today. I wanted to order Bittergourd with marmite sauce but he won't allow because he believes that eating bittergourd on such an auspicious day will make his future bitter. Anyway, lunch was good and I ate too much.

He doesn't read my blog unless he secretly knew about it or found out from people who know both him and me. But anyway, I'm doing my bit of ampu-ing here...

Happy Birthday to you, Boss! Hope business is good this year and we can get our bonus and increment. Yay!

P/S: He had a French Boudoir themed birthday party at the Zeta Bar, Hilton last Sunday with actual bar-top sexy dancers and a five piece band. How kinky is that! But I wasn't there to witness such a bold party here in our conservative country due to some terms and conditions he set for me. No worries, I was actually glad that I was not there. Instead, I had fun eating bbq and playing pictionary with some friends.

Sunday, April 02, 2006

Moments captured in Gopeng

As promised, here are the photos during my white water rafting trip in Sungai Itik, Gopeng last Saturday for your viewing pleasure...

In the car, on the way to the river, passing through kampung.

Blue sky, perfect day for us.

The glorious river, with cool water awaiting to challenge us.

Excited rafters all ready for action.

Rafters in action. Totally uncoordinated in the coordinated way.

Roughing through the rocks and current.

Photos taken and copyrighted by Delphinus 2006