I can't sleep. I am so upset and sad. I feel awful :S :(
One of the fishies died, the smallest of the 4. I'm so sorry, Mini.
I came home from a wonderful dinner with friends, feeling upbeat and happy. As usual, I will go take a look fishies as soon as I walk into my home. My heart dropped to the floor when I saw the littlest one is floating, lifeless, on the surface of the water. I stood there, frozen for a moment, feeling really awful.
I really can't bear it when I had to scoop it up from the water. Its eyes were white in colour and seemed like they are shut. Its belly was black in colour. The whole scenario was too sad and I could feel my body weakening. It is sad when I had to put it in a plastic bag and throw it away. Now late Mini is in my rubbish bag :(
It is only a fish, right? And it is not even mine. I just realised how weak I am that I can't even handle such a death, which may seem trivial and insignificant to many others. I felt irresponsible that I can even pet sit rightly. Will the other fishies be ok? Will they survive till they are back at their home again.
I haven't told the owner yet. I feel so guilty. I am so sorry.